Starting The Dream

Well - here it is day one of my new journey! (She says for about the 3^rd time already this year, oh dear I guess I really do have to go with - If at first you don’t succeed!…..
I have been on this particular journey since 8^th September 2011 - when I gathered what was left of my self-esteem and weighed in at 112.7kg. At 168cm, that is seriously overweight - ok it is obese (there I said it)
On 24/11/11 I had lost 7.7kg - weighing in at 105kg.
Then I got cocky didn’t I, skipped a few meetings, stopped tracking so vigilantly, and bam, off the wagon she rolls - my last weigh in (22/12/11) was 106.1kg with a weight loss of 6.6kg.
Sadly this is a bit of a pattern for me, start of really well, then lose motivation and slink away tail between my legs - only to join again a year or so later - several kegs heavier!
I am full of excuses, some are even valid, but you know what NO MORE!
On (my) scales this morning I was 106.6kg.
I have tracked my day and although I have used all my weeklies, we had a lovely family meal of roast chicken and all the trimming AND pavolva, the last one I will be making for some time! I think - with my personality - it is better to use them all in one hit and then I know for sure what I can eat the rest of the week, otherwise those weeklies seem to be used - several times over!
My resolve seems to be s.l.o.w.l.y creeping back in, but could be scared away anytime! I know that sounds negative, but really if I can’t be honest here what is the point of blogging!
I need to buy a spine, a backbone perhaps some willpower…any ideas where???
Oh wait, I think I might be able to pick them up at my first meeting of the year next Thursday with Ali at 5:30pm ;) Because when I look at my journal, I really do much better when I am staying for the meetings, so look out Ali and the lovely ladies at Halswell meeting, come Thursday…I’m back……….