On the scales this morning 105.3kg - after a healthy breakfast of ww muesli and diet yogurt.
So here we are, I have had a good 3 days weight watchers wise, I have drunk my water, stuck to my points and walked the rim track of the Quarry 3 days in a row. I had two “playdates” yesterday, taking yummy cupcakes to both but only eating 1 - in total not at each playdate lol - and drinking coffee. I have continued with my “frock-up” challenge, even posting twice yesterday.
However I have hit a wall today and this is where my challenge lies. I have two children - Benjamin is 9 years old and Jessica is 5.
Benjamin has multiple special needs, with autistic tendencies, although he is verbal. This is very challenging on so many levels and is quite often the reason my resolve around weight loss derails - as I tend to comfort eat, or I can not attend a meeting because he is in a bad way.
Sadly Mr. Benjamin seems to be going through one of his many “difficult” phases and yesterday turned to absolute custard - as he lost a toy, now how a child can lose a toy in the house, never to be found is a mystery that needs to be solved but nonetheless it is lost and I will pay, with temper tantrums that have to be seen to be believed, yesterday he broke a window, screamed absolute abuse at me, hit me and then cried most of the night which required me to sleep with him and cuddle and soothe all night. I also had to take the time to cuddle and soothe Jessica - god bless Daddy he tries but they both want Mum - as she gets very worried about Benjamin.
So here we are, this morning I am exhausted, I have two children who are tired and hence grumpy, and mummy who is worse, a broken window to be fixed and the undeniable urge to stuff myself full of junk and say “to hell with it”.
However there are advantages to it being the day before payday (glass half full, remember) in that there is not enough money to stuff myself full of junk. So today is where I really need to dig deep and keep focused on my journey. I think I can….I think I can…..I think I can……
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